SIMON SHAW settled into life with the England World Cup squad - and then revealed his sense of desolation over Clive Woodward's original selection snub.
The Wasps lock has arrived Down Under as replacement for broken-hand victim Danny Grewcock.
The World Cup call came just two months after Woodward left him out of a 30-man party which featured just three specialist locks in Grewcock, Martin Johnson and Ben Kay.
At the time, Woodward admitted it was the toughest selection decision in his six-year reign as England head coach - but that did not ease Shaw's agony.
"It was a huge blow. I never truly thought I was a definite selection - I always had an inkling that Clive might just take three secondrows and use Martin Corry as a second-row, cum back-row," said Shaw. "But I felt that I had done enough in the World Cup warm-up games to warrant a place, and obviously it was a huge blow when I got the news.
"Clive explained it at the time, and I didn't really need any more explanation than that. I then just got on with my daily chores.
"At the time, I had so much going on at home I kind of blanked out. But when the first England game went ahead (against Georgia) I think that's when it hit me. It took a couple of weeks before I really started watching the World Cup.
"Initially, I was moving house, I had a newborn child and I was doing renovations to the house. It was chaotic, so I didn't have time to think."
To make matters worse, 30-year-old Shaw missed out on both the 1995 and 1999 World Cups. But Grewcock's misfortune has opened a window of opportunity for Shaw, and he could even be on the bench against World Cup quarter-final opponents Wales at Suncorp Stadium next Sunday.